Wow Ken, you touched me here! If you were to tell me something like: “I finally got a contract for 15.000 a month for 3 years to make commercial music, I am very happy for it”, I would have felt glad for you, sure, but what you have written here makes me feel full of happiness and joy. I understand that you have come, naturally, to find yourself in music, you have reached your musical path, and this is great news! Congratulations for that Ken! It was a long way you have gone through which I had the fortune to follow with interest for about 11 years already.
Being yourself despite the needs of the market and death-liking what you do is the most important thing for a composer.
The “top 20 musical world” does not care about what we feel, they only care about money, and then there are yet some other interests coming from the middlemen between your possible success and your creative journey that conditions your creativity heavily to the point that your music, the most important of all, becomes secondary and their interest for money the first and most important thing...
For those that get into music with the purpose of being rich, it can be a good path, empty in terms of art but good for having and abundant material life, but for sincere musicians there is only one way: genuine music. If you are lucky enough and your music becomes mainstream, well that’s great of course, but this is not always the case. Now, If you were to do something you don’t like, musically, that takes the whole of your time every day, even if you were to earn this 15.000 month and all, you would still be unhappy and even worst, unfulfilled, living like a sleepwalker that eats caviar in his breakfast but with a sad grimace in his face. A musician faithful to his music may only eat a piece of bread, but will still be smiling and swinging since it jumps out of his bed in the early morning, with enthusiasm!
The world not always offers a niche for your “exclusive vocation”, if you are lucky and what you like is out there in offer, you may take it and you’re done, but if what you are and want is not out there, you are in trouble. The range of vocational possibilities is rather short in universities and the so, and they have been created and come from the needs of the market but definitely not to answer your human inspiration no matter how wonderful it may be, so when a vocation has a mixture of things that do not match what the market asks for, you are most probably a profession orphan. Because of fear and because of the ridicule the market makes of you if you are odd to its interests, you tend to follow what the market dictates, and this is how so many great musicians are today doing nothing with their lives musically, and even if they are full of money, they feel empty.
The world will not create this special place you need for you brother, but with strength of character and the wonderful advices of these three videos you are talking about, because the ideas are all there already coincidentally to what you have expressed, you can open your own path and walk it, it doesn’t matter how odd it may be for the world. I praise your bravery on this.
Definitely, to my humble understanding and for what I have asked you and talked in this forum for years with you, your first hunch in life was music, then you came to be prolific in the technological side of music for yourself. I can guarantee that you must be one of the most knowledgeable music-tech persons in this forum, what is saying a lot already, but not because you have many college degrees but because you are so restless, disposed and active when it comes to learning. I once asked in this forum to our Z friends to tell how much in percentage they actually knew and could use of their software and hardware, remember that?. I said about myself, if I remember well, that my range of use was of about 30% to 60% maximum, depending on the software, being the one I most know about Cubase. But you were the only one to answer 100% to all of them! I was amazed at your answer

And I am pretty sure you still remain the only one able to say that

Then you have these humanistic sparks of communication skills, or how could I call it, this thirst for friendship and communication, sharing, gathering, etc., it probably is simply love for people, which makes of you a good communicator. You must be, surely, a great teacher.
Go on Ken, and take your path even farther! I second Astroman in this, and invite you to quintessence your capacities and possibilities into your own, personal and exclusive vocation
